I’ve been through my share of unexpected, unfortunate, and unsettling endings and every single one of them left me in a miserable state. Crushed and depleted of my will to wake up every morning with anything else but a tear in my eye, I wanted to forever confine myself to my apartment, live in my pajamas and have mint chocolate chip ice cream delivered to me on a weekly basis.
Finally, I would get out of bed and put some real big-girl pants on, hoping that the worst part was over. Months later, I still have days where I fall back into a sad state of feeling sorry for myself. I have bad days where I question everything I’ve already wondered a million times and stress my brain over every inquiry that can’t be answered. There are many days when everything I’ve tried to forget comes back to haunt me and so many days when all the things and memories I tried to let go of find me again. And I have days when I just miss certain people and the way things used to be.
Life changes in the blink of an eye and things we could never predict happen. It’s intense, and sometimes it really sucks. (Every so often, it’s pretty awesome). Whatever the case, embrace it. Take deep breaths and baby steps, ease yourself into it. It’s going to get harder before it gets any better, but one day – it won’t even be an issue anymore.
Whatever happens… you’re going to okay kiddo. You’re going to be, okay.