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The Heart that Loves.

I wish I could turn down the dial of my compassionate heart, sometimes.

You see, my heart has this way of embracing people and great ideas in a tremendous way, like the way a bear hug feels when shared by someone who really loves you.  And while this sounds like a super-awesome quality, it sometimes gets the best of me.
Someone comes into my life and on some sort of level, I fall in love with them; I come across a fantastic idea, concept, possibility or project and my heart jumps on board, ready to reach ultimate highs. Whatever it is, whoever it happens to be – it’s all I can think about. I yearn for it, helplessly crave it – and I’m hooped.

In certain lucky scenarios – things work out for the best and having a big, loving heart works in my favour. But every now and again, happily ever after… doesn’t happen. The hopes of great success and the possibilities for what I wanted are slim to none, and I’m stuck.
My heart is screaming: “Let’s make this happen, it has to happen. I want. I need. This could be so amazing. Yes!”, while my head says: “No, I’m sorry. It just cannot be. There’s no way, it’s not possible. It’s not going to work out, I’m sorry. Let go.” It’s those moments, when my head knows the truth, but can’t convince my heart of the unfortunate reality. My heart, sometimes just doesn’t understand – which can make life, incredibly frustrating on occasion.

Despite the things in life that aren’t meant to be, there’s still a lot of awesome that can/will happen – which is why, sometimes, my heart just needs to chill.

Because, it’s really not a bad thing to have a heart that just loves to love… it just can’t love everything, all the time, at full force.

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Just, Be.

Let’s be serious; at some point, we’re all going to experience less than stellar days.

You’re going to wake up on the wrong side of the bed, and half way through the day – you’re going to realize you were better off staying in bed. Even if you do everything ‘right’, you may find yourself in the line of someone else’s fire, making you the target for their release on their own misfortunes.

Whatever happens and however it happens to make life, unappealing, it isn’t the end of the world. You will, recover.

The truth is: You don’t have to be “awesome” all the time. If you’re having a bad day, it’s not so bad to give in and just let it happen. If you want to cry about it, then let those tears pour down your face! If you find a guilty pleasure to make you feel better, for even a small blip in time, then why not. When you feel like just being miserable, then go right ahead and put your grumpy pants on. Whatever it is that you need to do, just do it.

It’s okay to take a break from being that strong individual you pride yourself on all the time, and it’s okay to let loose, be vulnerable, and accept any help that comes your way. You’ll feel better if you let it happen. Let it pass, and then – move on.

Give in to your feelings, emotions and gut instincts. Follow your heart, and listen to that little voice inside your head. There’s no need to fool anyone or pretend to be something you’re not…
Don’t try to be someone you’re not – whether that’s what you or other’s seem to think you should be.
Just be, YOU. Naturally, comfortably, honestly… in every moment.

You’re a fantastic human being, just as you are. So just… be. You.
Life’s a lot easier, and more enjoyable for the most part, that way.

 

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Love Yourself

Perfection isn’t achievable, but it doesn’t stop me from always striving for it.
And while I know I will never reach that level of completely perfect – keeping it in mind consistently motivates me to be my ultimate best as much as possible.

Unfortunately, along the way, I’m my own worst critic. I nit pick, I find every flaw, I dwell on anything I consider an inadequate quality. I hardly accept myself in the way others will compliment me and I always continually harshly criticizing myself.

The other day, while I was sweating profusely on the elliptical at the gym – I decided that I need to stop and appreciate myself. I need to spend more time embracing and loving myself, and I need to open my eyes to the appealing features that others tell me about. It’s time to appreciate what I do have, instead of always wishing for things I am not.

So here I am, trying to think of 5 things I love about myself. This is what I’ve come up with:

1. My legs.
(someone once nicknamed me “Miss Million Dollar Legs”, so I guess they’re pretty fantastic)

2. The little indent at the tip of my nose.
(unless you run your finger across it, you can’t really tell it’s there – I don’t know why, but it fascinates me and I’m easily amused by it)

3. A dimple on the right side of my cheek that I just recently discovered.
(I love dimples. Yay!)

4. My skin tone.
(although I often look at myself with disgust of how ‘pale’ I am, I’m actually fairly tan compared to the average white person – and come summer, the tan comes so easily!)

5. My eyes.
(I wish they were a different colour… but y’know, there’s something intriguing about them.)

That wasn’t easy, but it’s a start. At least now, I can look at myself in the mirror and say “Hey, you’re not too shabby.”


Try it out, and find even just one thing you enjoy about yourself.
Don’t forget to love yourself, more often than not. You’re beautiful, just the way you are. Trust me!